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Watching For The Pot To Boil

Four days. Ive ben kept in a house for four days. No going outside or anything. Im beginning to feel myself lose it faster and faster. I sit here watching for a pot of water to boil to make food because i have no other purpose while i wait for it. I can not keep contained. I cannot imagine this life. The life of containment when there is so much freedom out there. I was to see it. All of it. I want to go and really go. I want to be where ever i can to feel it all. I want out of the shell. I want into the world. I want raw beauty. Not beauty like models you see on tv. I want beauty like you see out your window while staying in a cabin in the middle of the land. I want purity at its best unpolluted by all the stuff governments and cities and the unrealism life has today. So soon enough my cage will be opened and i will roam to every land i can.

You have to appreciate having nothing to appreciate something.

20,000 Leagues Over My Head

Tired. Tired. Tired. Tired. Tired. I never thought it was possible to be the most tired while doing...well nothing. I have been in Salt Lake babysitting my sisters kid while she goes to Dotera conventions ha. And she even took the baby. Its just me and Addi who really shouldnt be that hard to care for but let me tell you...Pretending to be bolt while shes penny is quite tiring. I am pretty sure she made me do the "super bark" at least eleventy billion times. Shes cute though. I now know that i am nowhere near ready to be a mom ha. Im still a kid...especially when im getting mad cause she didnt pick Cars instead of veggie tales...how old am i. ha. Anyways, i will be finished here in salt lake at about 11 oclock at night on saturday. Then i get to make my long journey back down to the utah county. How i miss Utah county but hate it at the same time. Life is funny that way. Anyways. Plans for next week? Hopefully seeing a dollar movie with Lindsey, and i plan to run my guts out EVERYDAY for my lack of days here. Hopefully life turns up for the better :)

Dont lose hope, for there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

When I Get Home You're So Dead

Life is very vapidly predictable to say the least. Running is a great escape from what you face everyday though. Ipod- CHECK Running shoes-CHECK water-CHECK. Best medicine to survive your head. There are thoughts that are tiring me and the day cant come fast enough to have these thoughts at least deteriorate even the slightest bit. I hope that one day i can go out and get some schooling done and get out of Utah for a while. I think thats what i could use to make my life a little more interesting. All though there are the select few that make my life very interesting. Some in positive way others in not positive ways at all. But oh well. Life goes on and i choose to LIVE.

The moral this time, Girls make Girls cry.